Showing posts with label career. Show all posts
Showing posts with label career. Show all posts

Tuesday, 12 July 2011

The only way to see a rainbow is to look through the rain.

I had a busy day yesterday and as usual it involved dashing around acting as a taxi service for various family members. Then after all the rushing and urgency I was on my own and I had an hour to myself. I was enjoying the unhurried drive home with only myself to please. I like having time on my own, but it seems to be in those quiet moments that all my niggling thoughts fight for attention in my head, things such as wondering how I will ever afford to fix the roof, concern for the health of a relative, and sadness that our dog is reaching the end of her life. It started to rain, nothing much, but I kept having to turn my wipers on and off. Then when I turned a corner and in front of me was a beautiful rainbow, it was very clear and a compete arc and it remained visible for the remainder of my journey. I can't explain why, but there is something meaningful and uplifting about seeing a rainbow and I felt as if I really needed a rainbow in my life just then.


Earlier in the week one of my friends had said that sometimes she felt as if everyone else is busy with their while she is just fading into the background. In a way I could identify with that, I had to put my career on hold and prioritise care responsibilities for the last few years, and it seems as if my life has been 'on hold' for some time. If only I could put the ageing process on hold as well!! For such a long time my life has been focussed on doing everything I can to support my family that I have almost forgotten how to take a little time for myself. Now things have changed, I have a little more freedom and at last I am able to return to full time work so I need to apply myself to the daunting process of finding a suitable job. Please keep your fingers crossed for me. 


I love the quote that I used as the heading for this blog post, because it sums my life up very well. I believe that the original quote was by Dolly Parton


“The way I see it, if you want the rainbow, you gotta 


put up with the rain."

Wednesday, 5 March 2008

Ambition 03.08.07

According to my children I am very old fashioned. The reason for this sweeping statement was because I had asked the girls what they hoped for as an eventual career. To them it seems years away, but I don't think it is so unreasonable to expect someone who is about to go to university to have given a little thought to career options. Apparently people don't do that these days. This set me thinking, I have an old postcard with wandering footprints on it with the words 'People who don't know where they are going usually end up somewhere else". I guess that is true with careers as much as anything else. The high hopes of childhood often diminish and people settle for something very different. I just want the girls to make the most of every opportunity because it is so much more difficult to change career or undertake further training later in life when you are tied by financial commitments.

For much of my childhood I wanted to be a farmer or a writer, my eventual career has been very different. My very first ambition was to be a news reader, I was only very small and I used to sit in the bath holding one of those old fashioned shower attachments that fitted onto the taps as if it was a microphone, I would make up all sorts of news and pretend I was on the Radio. On the subject of microphones, when Laura was little she wanted to be a Spice Girl, but she will kill me for mentioning it. Robbie wanted to be a lorry driver because he liked lorries, so he hasn't strayed too far from his original aspirations, it seems his passion for trains has served him well because he loves his work. Sam's first ambition was to be a trolley pusher at the supermarket. At some point a well meaning aunt suggested he may like to be a vet instead because he is very good with animals, but Sam declined claiming that he only liked animals from the outside not from the inside! He then went on to his spy phase, there was a brief period of wanting to be a super hero, then he wanted to be a cartoonist. He still has a strong interest in films and he has had various thoughts about careers in the film industry. I wonder what his future will hold.


So what is my ambition now? Fairly simple really, to grow old disgracefully and to write.